Celebrating My Mother

The picture above was my moms favorite plant. She just loved birds of paradise. You Know before I became a Christian I would mourn on mothers day. I would cry most of the day and not even want to be around those who have there moms. It was incredibly hard.

However, because God gave me new life, today I celebrate my mother who was a incredible lady! My mom was a lady who was a great friend , who would help anybody in a second, who take her cloths off her back to help a stranger. With that said there were no strangers. My mother was a lady who loved so many and if she didn't know you she still loved you. She was strong,vibrant,loving,beautiful inside and out.


Dear Mom,

I miss you so much but today I celebrate you. I am up early talking to God because since you left I gave my life to him. He has been amazing mom he is taking care of me every minute of the day. As I sit here this morning smiling about all the amazing times we shared I look out into the patio and I see my daily reminder, your Birds of Paradise.

It has been hard since you left and I pray that you were saved, I have an amazing church family they are my saving grace. I want you to know mom that today I will think of you often and smile often because of your love you gave me. I know we had eachother a very short time but I know it was enough time because you taught me so much. I still hear your voice and everytime I pass a butterfly I smile. I pray today that my brothers will come to Christ mom so that they to can and will celebrate your life rather then mourn it.

Mamá, le amo y le echo de menos gracias por amarme. Sé un día veremos otra vez. ¡Usted es realmente echado de menos y amado dan a mi papá un abrazo grande y el beso porque hoy lo echo de menos tanto!

¡Hasta que Nos encontremos Otra vez!

Mija

Trusting In Him!!!

I have wonder why God has me here at this Job. It is a tough place to work and it is so of the world. I really need to stay focused and seek him minute by minute even at times second by second.

I believe this past friday at 5:15PM God shared with me why I am here at this job. Marina's ( a girl I work with) mom had surgery on friday to have a tumor removed. The doctors really thought that it would be a simple procedure and she would have a few weeks of recovery and she would move on and be fine. Well at 5:15PM on Friday Marina called Dan and I and shared with us that her mother (by doctors standards) was given 2 months to live with out chemo and 4 years with. I was crushed because I knew exactly how she felt. The pain the sadness, the uncertain feeling but then God said no no , you walk with me now give to me. Show her me through you be strong he said for her be strong. The lord said don't go back and feel your pain and remember that pain feel my love and my hope and my understanding!!! Praise God!!!!

I was around the same age of Marina when I lost my mom I know the pain she is going through and I have been blessed to be able to pray with her mom and her and right now I just need to ask God to help me not take the pain on physically for her but to take it on spiritually and seek God to show me how to help her how he wants me to help her. I know it is hard and hurts and I also know he will bring so much good out of all of this.

I know God will show me what he wants and how to share it. I am so amazed by what God has done in my life and he has let me live in his Glory!!! So blessed I am so in love with Chirst it is amazing! Thank you FATHER for all you do for me daily!

Trusting in Him!

Thank You Honey!

Okay so it has been a tough few days. If you read my previous blog you will see that Dan and I lost someone very dear to us. My husband who has been so amazing in my life has once again been there to support me and love me and just keep us strong.

It melts my heart when my husband holds my hands and prays for us. I love him so much he gives me so much. We sit across the room and he will give me this look that only I know that he loves me. I love him and Thank God for an amazing man like him .


We have been through so many things in our relationship but we always stood together and we always supported on another. Thank you father for giving me such a gift!

I love you Daniel!

Walking With Christ

Deleted Thank you Todd!!! For you help with this lastnight! Your an amazing man in Christ!

Getting Real and Healthy

Okay I am so excited to get real and healthy! I am approaching this with a different spin then I have before. I am going to be digging deep and getting peace with a lot of issues and asking for God’s guidance.

Believe me just like anything in life you can’t do it by yourself you need your heavenly father right by your side. I need to get off my rear and get moving and get real. I am happy person regardless if I am thin (which has been awhile) or if I am overweight. However when you overweight you’re the funny fat girl.. Yikes! I don’t want that. So this journey will be interesting I am ready for the challenge and I am excited for what my Lord has in store for me and how my relationship will get deeper and stronger.

So please keep me in prayer that I am faithful and strong and that I am open to what he will be teaching me.

Fasting & Lessons Learned

A friend of mine and her husband had been going through some tough times and our bible study had been in deep prayer for them for several months.

Well I thought that I would fast as an offering to our Lord. So my fast began and I gave up the hardest thing ever or at least that is what I thought. I gave up chocolate and diet coke. I really wanted it to be a challenge something to bring me to prayer and worship and believe me it did. I gave it up October 10 one day before my birthday because it was so heavy on my heart and negotiating with God wasn’t an option. Could you imagine me trying tell God that I hear what he wants me to do but if he could just wait one more day… Ahhh no not going to happen.

When I first set out to fast I was only going to do for 40 days but at the end of 40 days I went back in prayer and God put it heavy on my heart again to keep going so I proceeded to do it until the day after Thanksgiving. I was like are you sure lord? Like he didn’t know what he was doing so I said okay. I gave up chocolate for over 60 days ( I know sounds real silly but I think I love chocolate way to much). Like I said in the begging I really thought I was doing this for someone else but it really taught me so much more and blessed me so much.

Like most people I am an emotional eater and we have gone through so much tragedy in the last few years. My husband and I had suffered some major losses, from losing my Mother, Father, two dear friends who stepped up as parental units since the passing of my parents and our business and our home and since the passing of my father my relationship with my siblings no longer exist.


Since then, I have gained some weight and have been on diets and off diets but I really thought I had no will power. However, during this time of fasting I realized that I do have lots of will power. Anything is possible through God, and for the first time in a long time do I feel that I can conquer this issue in my life and just pray and go to God every step of the way. I am going blog my journey (that I will keep private) and with the Grace of God this will be an amazing journey. I have also learned that yes those were great losses in my life but through all of these things, I came to Christ, I rededicated my life to Christ and My Father gave his life to Christ. So through all the bad he gave us so much good.

Funny how we are blessed when we think we are really doing something for someone else.

Exodus 15:2 (New American Standard Bible)

2"(A)The LORD is my strength and song,
And He has become my salvation;
(B)This is my God, and I will praise Him;
(C)My father's God, and I will (D)extol Him

Moved to Tears

I am not even sure how to begin this blog. I woke up this morning and I sat here and prayed for friends and family etc. then asked the lord as I went into his word to open my heart and let me hear him. Well as I finished I just had this lump in my throat all day. I felt that at any moment I could cry but it wasn’t tears of sadness. So I kept thinking oh gosh I must be getting near the “EMOTIONAL TIME OF THE MONTH”. Well I wasn’t near that time at all.

I proceeded with my day and began to take down the Christmas decorations and the tree etc. I had music on as I was cleaning and I still had the lump in my throat. I couldn’t figure it out why I felt like this so I just kept praying. All I could do is sit on the couch and listen to Mercy Me and Cry and Worship. I figured it out God was coming into my heart and he wanted me to open it to him just as I had asked.

Dan and I drive in to the O.C. and when we listen to Mercy Me I feel so compelled to raise my hands as we are driving. I am sure if I did that the people in the next car would think hello who is the crazy women in that car.

I am so thankful that he chose me. I sit in awe and just thank him for choosing me and loving me and holding my hand every day. Now I am just asking the lord to reveal to me what his plan is for me where he wants me. I want to do more for him I am just not sure how to find out what my calling is. So I will keep praying and asking him to reveal to me where and what I am to do and what ministry at church he would like to be in.