Getting Real and Healthy

Okay I am so excited to get real and healthy! I am approaching this with a different spin then I have before. I am going to be digging deep and getting peace with a lot of issues and asking for God’s guidance.

Believe me just like anything in life you can’t do it by yourself you need your heavenly father right by your side. I need to get off my rear and get moving and get real. I am happy person regardless if I am thin (which has been awhile) or if I am overweight. However when you overweight you’re the funny fat girl.. Yikes! I don’t want that. So this journey will be interesting I am ready for the challenge and I am excited for what my Lord has in store for me and how my relationship will get deeper and stronger.

So please keep me in prayer that I am faithful and strong and that I am open to what he will be teaching me.

Fasting & Lessons Learned

A friend of mine and her husband had been going through some tough times and our bible study had been in deep prayer for them for several months.

Well I thought that I would fast as an offering to our Lord. So my fast began and I gave up the hardest thing ever or at least that is what I thought. I gave up chocolate and diet coke. I really wanted it to be a challenge something to bring me to prayer and worship and believe me it did. I gave it up October 10 one day before my birthday because it was so heavy on my heart and negotiating with God wasn’t an option. Could you imagine me trying tell God that I hear what he wants me to do but if he could just wait one more day… Ahhh no not going to happen.

When I first set out to fast I was only going to do for 40 days but at the end of 40 days I went back in prayer and God put it heavy on my heart again to keep going so I proceeded to do it until the day after Thanksgiving. I was like are you sure lord? Like he didn’t know what he was doing so I said okay. I gave up chocolate for over 60 days ( I know sounds real silly but I think I love chocolate way to much). Like I said in the begging I really thought I was doing this for someone else but it really taught me so much more and blessed me so much.

Like most people I am an emotional eater and we have gone through so much tragedy in the last few years. My husband and I had suffered some major losses, from losing my Mother, Father, two dear friends who stepped up as parental units since the passing of my parents and our business and our home and since the passing of my father my relationship with my siblings no longer exist.


Since then, I have gained some weight and have been on diets and off diets but I really thought I had no will power. However, during this time of fasting I realized that I do have lots of will power. Anything is possible through God, and for the first time in a long time do I feel that I can conquer this issue in my life and just pray and go to God every step of the way. I am going blog my journey (that I will keep private) and with the Grace of God this will be an amazing journey. I have also learned that yes those were great losses in my life but through all of these things, I came to Christ, I rededicated my life to Christ and My Father gave his life to Christ. So through all the bad he gave us so much good.

Funny how we are blessed when we think we are really doing something for someone else.

Exodus 15:2 (New American Standard Bible)

2"(A)The LORD is my strength and song,
And He has become my salvation;
(B)This is my God, and I will praise Him;
(C)My father's God, and I will (D)extol Him

Moved to Tears

I am not even sure how to begin this blog. I woke up this morning and I sat here and prayed for friends and family etc. then asked the lord as I went into his word to open my heart and let me hear him. Well as I finished I just had this lump in my throat all day. I felt that at any moment I could cry but it wasn’t tears of sadness. So I kept thinking oh gosh I must be getting near the “EMOTIONAL TIME OF THE MONTH”. Well I wasn’t near that time at all.

I proceeded with my day and began to take down the Christmas decorations and the tree etc. I had music on as I was cleaning and I still had the lump in my throat. I couldn’t figure it out why I felt like this so I just kept praying. All I could do is sit on the couch and listen to Mercy Me and Cry and Worship. I figured it out God was coming into my heart and he wanted me to open it to him just as I had asked.

Dan and I drive in to the O.C. and when we listen to Mercy Me I feel so compelled to raise my hands as we are driving. I am sure if I did that the people in the next car would think hello who is the crazy women in that car.

I am so thankful that he chose me. I sit in awe and just thank him for choosing me and loving me and holding my hand every day. Now I am just asking the lord to reveal to me what his plan is for me where he wants me. I want to do more for him I am just not sure how to find out what my calling is. So I will keep praying and asking him to reveal to me where and what I am to do and what ministry at church he would like to be in.

Out with 2008 - In with 2009

It is early in the morning and I was on facebook doing my wishes for 2009.

I thank God for all he did in our lives in 2008, for the people, the miracles and the daily blessings and of course the lessons . We (meaning Dan and I) have had an amazing year with some ups and some downs. We know the lord is going to bless us in so many ways in 2009.

The lord has been speaking to me about changing alot of things in my life. I will get through each one of them by going to him and seeking him and asking for guidance.


I want to thank my amazing husband who has been there for me and who reminds me that God is the our answer and our life. He has been a strong support to me during our relationship , he was there to pick me up when I lost my mom and he held my hand as I was losing my father. I have had so many loses recently that I can only contribute the smile on my face to Our lord who said to walk with me, give it to me, let me carry you. Praise God that he gave me my hubby who helped me as well in this journey.

In 2009 I want to be in Gods word daily,work in a ministry at church,start my flower giving in Corona again, Be a great stepmom, and spend time with my amazing friends who have blessed my life and spend more time with my nieces who I love with all my heart.

It is now 1:47PM and I started this blog in the morning and just finished... Now I know if I had two babies that not alot would get down but I love my nieces. :)

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas! It has been an amazing Christmas for sure and I am so blessed and thankful for all he does in our lives daily! I just finished cleaning our house and as silly as it sounds, In a weird way it is so nice to pick up after my Stepson (yes you heard me right). I pray that one day we will be blessed with a child of our own or that we can adopt. I know that God has amazing things in store for Dan and I. However, for now I should be so thankful for my stepson. He is a great kid, he is incredibly smart,funny and giving. So lesson for me is that I need to be thankful for all that I have at all times.

Christmas Tradition with Tamales

Today we are making tamales it has been a longtime tradition in my family. However, now that I am doing it myself with my family it reminds that it is so much more about the time together and not so much about the tamales.

I remember as a young girl my mom and aunts would get together and laugh and sing and tell stories. Some of the most incredible childhood memories ever. If you could imagine a huge Hispanic family sitting in my abuela's dinning room in there home in Redondo Beach just listening to Spanish music dancing and singing and and just enjoying eachother you would have thought you were in the Utopia of families. Our family was a traditional Hispanic family with the beautiful white haired abuela telling all her daughters and granddaughter's that they are making the tamales wrong and giving instructions on how to do it the right way and she was always right. The masa has to float to the top she said and if didn't then it wasn't done correctly.

Then you have my Aunts who are just hilarious and would make everybody laugh and who are vivacious and lovable who wanted to dance and sing and that describes all of my aunts. Then you have all the uncles sitting down in the third floor playing poker and laughing and everybody always letting my abuelo win in poker because none of the son in laws wanted our Abuelo to get mad at them lol... My papa was much smarter then they thought he loved it because he knew he was going to win.


So with that said, making the tamales was an extra bonus but it was really about family and friends. Though I have lost both of parents and our family has grown so much and everybody is so busy doing their own thing and sometimes forget about the most precious times in life. It is always good to take a step back, enjoy your family and friends and have some traditions , So today Daniel and I have our 3rd anniversay of making tamales for our own family and hope this tradition and time together keep progessing through our family.

My nieces and my son will add to the laughter and the fun. We are so blessed with great friends and family I couldn't ask for anymore then that.

Thank You Father for the blessing you have poured into our lives!



Mi familia es hermosa y cariñosa y me siento muy bendecida por mi padre que se me han dado todos los regalos en mi vida. Te quiero papá y mamá y te descanse en paz. Te amo hija Cyndi